Play 185: Internal Struggle

CHARACTERS
VINCENT, 17

(He stands in the middle of the stage.)

VINCENT
You know, I remember hearing this line somewhere that went something like, every man is a horde of men.

(Beat.)

I remember thinking that was an interesting line.

(Beat.)

But, really, so what? That’s nothing new really, everyone’s a different person in different circumstances with different people, and, everyone has different perspectives and all that, that’s not the problem.

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The problem for me is, all the different “people,” if you will, are pretty much at war all the time.

(Beat.)

But that’s not the real problem. What’s worse is that no one ever wins. The insecure part of me and the narcissistic part tear each other down, the impulsive part of me is stopped by the anxious and worried part, they all are constantly at odds, and yet they always end up in a stalemate.

(Beat.)

So, all the different parts of my mind are never able to fully assert themselves, because the part of me that thinks the exact opposite is always just strong enough to stop me from fully believing in the other, so I never act on anything.

(Beat.)

Sometimes I wish for once that one of the people would finally lose one of those battles, so whichever one won, I could finally act on it. I don’t even really care so much which one it is, none of them are really that much better or more important or logical than the rest, so it really doesn’t matter. All that matters is for once the stasis, the stalemate, whatever you want to call it, for once, I’d get out of it.

(Beat.)

But, now the “you’re-going-way-too-far-with-this-ridiculous-and-overstretched-analogy” part of me is getting ready to brutally kill me, so I think I’ll stop it there.

(Blackout.)